I am happy to be back after a few months absence, due to a challenge in my life. When crisis occurs it always takes me a long time to process it emotionally; to come to terms with it and finally move on. It is like I am not ready to face the world again until I have made some sense of it all.
This is the biggest downside of being both sensitive and introverted I think; to lose sleep often and so easily, not to mention a lot of ruminating in order to process difficult situations – before hopefully making peace with the issue and perhaps even find some meaning in it.
I have such a strong need for a sense of meaning in (my) Life!
“Sometimes the fastest way to get there is to go slow” is a line from a song by the wonderful Danish singer/songwriter Tina Dickow (you should check her out!).
-I sure hope there is some truth in this because I often feel I must be the slowest progressing person in this still faster-moving world – well, at least there is progress..:)
Besides being slow to get over “negative stuff”, I have had good ideas or dreams, but then turning and twisting it in my mind for (to) long, attempting to prevent myself from making mistakes.
This hesitating has once in a while meant that I, some time later (with a bittersweet feeling) saw someone else doing something similar to my idea/dream “out in the world”.
On the positive side, this reveals that we might very well think that we are completely separate and unique individuals, but as these experiences clearly show: there is, in fact, something operating below the surface – known as collective consciousness. And not being part of it or influenced by it, is simply impossible (even for a Loner like me).
It’s just that someone else had all the necessary resources (inner and outer) to follow their idea through.
A way of reframing such experiences, is to view it as validation instead of a ” losing a race” situation; your ideas, dreams or even vision is probably part of a greater movement and that means you are always and intimately connected with other human beings in this world – comforting and reassuring isn’t it:)
This human interconnectedness is, of course, amazing and it is wonderful that beautiful or valuable new things are created and shared with the world all the time.
So if you have had this experience, too – try to think of it this way:
We are all part of the collective consciousness and in a certain sense; no inspiration, vision or increased awareness is ever lost; we are in a way creating together – even if your contribution is perhaps only done “behind the scenes”.
Still; all this being said my dear fellow Sensitive/Introvert: please try to muster the courage to get your art, ideas, wisdom or insights out of your “closet” and in front of other people – because then we will ignite, inspire, heal and enlighten each other even more!